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"he was definitely my first big love"

tooo fucking cute

tumblr time!

 

 

 

 

 

when i was 17

cherish every moment

im always being patient with baby.always giving him chances.the reason behind this is because i cherish him sooo much.yll may think that a girl who still is with a guy who cheated on her or lies to her is stupid and dumb and yll would look down on her but seriously it takes alot of courage to do that.to not give up the ones you love.and i believe in that.if we love someone so much we should not give him up easily.we should have faith that he would change.cos as far as im concern as written on top, "YOU HAVE TO GO THROUGH THE WORST TO GET TO THE BEST" yes this is sooo true cos if every human gives up easily and couples keeps breaking up then there wont be married couples anymore .if we want to last long we have to always forgive and forget and i as i girlfriend who love my boyfriend sooo much im willing to take the chance to forgive him on every mistake he made and if gods will we can last long and maybe get married?heheh i know we want to get married so hopefully our wish would come true one day.heh heh bby im sorry ive hurting you in my recent posts but heres a post just for you to see and know that ill always be by your side loving you every moment while i still can^^it doesnt matter if we fight all the time better not actually but still the important thing is we still love each other and i love you soo much dear fitri :)

living young wild and free

So what we get drunk?
So what we smoke weed?
We’re just having fun
We don’t care who sees
So what we go out?
That’s how its supposed to be
Living young and wild and free

[Wiz Khalifa]
So what I keep ‘em rolled up?
Saggin’ my pants, not caring what I show
Keep it real with my niggas
Keep it player for these hoes
And look clean don't it?
Washed it the other day, watch how you lean on it
Give me some 501 jeans on it
Roll joints bigger than King Kong’s fingers
And smoke them hoes down ’til they stingers
You a class clown and if I skip for the day
I’m with your bitch smokin’ grade A
 lublublub<3

indie night

its saturday day in today with indie music on not texting anyone in particular nor am i making any plans for the weekends.its plain old me with my earplucks on dancing in my mind to my playlist of indie music.from tdcc to vampire weekend to lykke li.ooooh the music is just amazing.have the sudden feel for indie nao its just so relaxing to hear  with me pms-ing around right nao and bf not texting hah wth with that right?ive gt indie music as a companion for the weekends nao i dont need him.tsk bf have been a pain in the ass.im not sure bout him right nao.grrr mixed feelings arousing right now.i dont know if i should love him or not.i mean like am i stupid?i accepted someone who lies to me recurringly and i forgave him and he is forever not texting me but im right here waiting.aint that just plain stupid or what at times i feel like i need him.and that he have been there for me like most of the time he have been the most amazing and that i love him sooo much.grrrrr fuck i think im just having moodswings that i feel this way.go away quick pls.i totally hate pms-ing :(  but fitri never gets it.he knows i pms he knows im sad cos he read my blog but he does nothing! fuck yeah he does nothing bout it.he wants me to win his heart and takes care of it but why not he try to make me happy for a change?try and win my heart back!my fucking trust back!tsk he doesnt care at all.hmmmm fuck him la dont want to fucking bother since he dont.im just gonna enjoy my music.goodbye....................im good im gone^^

how naughty i was before

ohmygosh i was cleaning up my folder in my lappy and i saw these pictures and guess wot?i was only sec 1-3 then sia.gosh i was soo naughty hahahah.first pic was sec one i think i was slacking at fareast plaza at around 1am heh heh.i was actually having a sleepover with kathleen at the hotel nearby i think it was sheraton hotel.off the hook right i know.second pic was another sleepover at kathleen's place.we went swimming at around 12-1 am i think cnt rmmbr but what i rmmbred was after drinking that we went wheelock to drink some shots with nick and keemy at 2 am.i was half drunk btw.hahaha wth.last pic is just some random pic.uhk ugly.ugly me when i was young.thank god i have fitri now.i dont go out at wee hours anymore no more piercings and i dont go out to have shots with guys at wee hours too now.yay to having fitri by my side!muahs!

being att doenst make me young anymore

i have the fucking feeling to just drink and swim and dance and smoke all in one night like i used to last time!but i know i cant now cause the diff is i was single then,i could even swim with my bra and panty if i wanted to but now im att.i have a rule book to follow.hahs i chose it.endure........

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maybe we were meant to be

so hey im back i felt like blogging^^ ive been busy with work i hope 7th dec comes fast please.i want to have a look at the sum of money i have earned myself for the effing first time hahahaa.kay not literally uhk since i did kendarat bfo but yea.okay today imma talk my heart out bout what ive been feeling lately.ive been pretty sad actually.hmm karma is hitting me back that fo sure.hahs!this so reminds me of nawawi that eff up wimp that doesnt have the guts to tell me he want me.wtf with him alright.but seriously its really coming back to me.the lies,the cries,the big fights,the cry at night bfo i go to bed,the cheating,the motherfuck stories that we both know it aint true.yeah that.by that yll should know that me and fitri have been going thru tough times together.i think for me this relationship is on a roller coaster ride as i dont feel it anymore.the everlasting happiness.yeahp.we had a big fight that day i even asked for a break up i swear i could have cried a river but i didnt.but my heart was totally hurt by hearing to his lies when i already knew the truth.only myself know that is karma but i still didnt want to accept.hmm i couldnt take it anymore till i heard his silence when i sad i didnt love him anymore.well that hurts fo sure and it hurts me to listen him go all quiet and me being weak inside i forgave him but i know i wasnt happy.i wasnt happy cause im scared.i couldnt possibly trust him right?or could i?idk!but im not happy i have insecurities now.i truely loved fitri but he lied and im not sure if he gonna change or lie again thats why im not happy.he thinks i am but im not.i faking this cause i love him i want him to be happy.hmm well i hope he see that i love him.i hope he wont hurt me anymore cause for the million times i think im saying this I TRUELY LOVE MUHAMMAD FITRI!idc what people gonna say  bout him but my heart have falll deep with him.i swear.if yll would like to know how weak i am well my tears are falling just my typing all this down.hmm i so scared he is gona leave me.well if he does tho my heart is always open for him.xx
fitri:baby if you do read this hmm im sorry i said that i wasnt happy but i faked it all because i dont want you to know that im sad cause i want you to be happy.i would do anything i could just to make you happy dear youve change my life in so many different ways starting by being the only person who truly cares bout me who  would get angry at me if i didnt listen who would pamper me like a lil baby who would do anything just to make me happy.and wuld even lie to win my heart.i swear youre the sweetest thing.and youre my fucking best.forget bout the bull i said bout my ex being the best you should know that you are the best baby i hope you are proud of that cos im proud of you to win my heart and be my best dear.muahs xx

high and lows

heyyhoooo whaddup my non-existance blog reader!so yeah ive been really really busy lately like super duper bust as ive started working.for the whole of november its me and work only!i dont even meet my babes and worst my bb.sad much huh?so yeah ive been reading jaz and fanna's blog and my name have been up repeatedly cos one thing is fo sure THE MISSED ME hahs!i miss them too and its very dearing of them to post a blogpost talking bout how much they missed me and the clique!hmm kay batt running out talk later bye

bestgirls ever!



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so hey guys! I-AM-SOOOOO-BLESSED! heeeee im sooo lucky to have these girls as my besties!their just soo sweet and loving!jazlina and fanna have posted a blog post about me and how much they missed me being in school.im sooo touched that i actually cried.haisy its the sweetest thing ever!i really do aprreciate friends like this who would go thru life with you no matter what thru thicks and thins they will be there standing behind you lifting you up everytime you fall they will be the pillars to keep you up they will be there to cheer you on.everytime!i really miss them especially jazlina who im really close with.cant wait to meet them soon.apart from having an awesome boyfriend who is also very important to me i have this awesome kiddos!life is great i swear!but my bby more important uhk heeh  sorry guys.muaaaaaahs xoxo oh btw yll can check out what they wrote exactly.their bloglinks are at the captions of the photos^^byee

make-up

heh kay guess wot i was bored and so i played around with my make-up heh heh! im actually not used to using thick make-up with eyeshadow and lipstick but id give it a try today.heh^^okayy hate all you want i myself dont like me wearig thick makeup hahhaa.kbye

facts

these are 10 facts about my boyfriend that makes him amazingly awesome^^

• he could do this really cool tongue roll which many could but its the fact that i cant that makes him cool
• he could strum the guitar one time and it automatically makes me smile
• he plays the keyboard so damn good
• he kisses me all the time
• he can pull off the backcomb hairdo pretty well
• he's got sense of style
• he dress the way i like guys to dress
• he has chinese looking face
• he's pampered
• he pampers me all the time

so thats it^^ heeeee

funny how pictures depicts us sometimes

i was just looking round tumblr and found this.hah! this is so like me and sissy.me with the messy hairdo and casual looking clothes and wedges while sissy with her headband and accesories not so much of the clothes tho.heh cute much tht this depicts me and sissy^^

say hey to my 100th post

okayy so yeahp yesterday i went town to meet baby^^ we went plaza sing to catch a movie.we watched reel steel cause he wanted to so i give in but yeah the show was totally awesome shit plus there was a cute lill boy in the show hahaha.oh yeahp did i tell you guys that baby surprised me with a guess wallet?oh yes he did!!!! hahaha my baby is full of surprises i like ^^so the was just lunch>movie>walk arnd>dinz>home hehe quite boring when u think of it but when youre with someone u love then it feels like u soo dont want to end the day but unfortunately the day ended and we went  our separate ways:( so i had much fun with baby yesterday as always^^ and so i end my 100th post byeeeee

xoxo.